Treatment Support at GiveSendGo
- Sienna Skye
- Aug 1, 2023
- 3 min read
Hello, my name is Sienna Skye. I am eighteen years old and I am a bondservant of Christ. For the last four years of my life, I have been battling the chronic and life-altering effects of Childhood Trauma; mental/emotional abuse and CSA.
Due to these events, I’ve developed these terrible and "unexplainable" symptoms and conditions, including Misophonia and PGAD. (Misophonia is a condition that causes a major fight or flight panic and in some cases, like mine, it even causes physical nerve pain as a response to when you hear everyday sounds). It’s enough to have me on the floor screaming. In my case, considering my history of CSA, noises aren't the only trigger to this pain. Triggers also include seeing certain movements and sometimes being touched. It sends a traveling crawling sensation through my skin that makes me want to claw my skin out and I cry out until I have no more energy.
And then I also have PGAD: a chronic pain disorder that is ultimately debilitating. This pain I experience on a daily basis is a direct reflection of the pain I endured during events of CSA. These painful sensations and episodes cause me to be screaming till I lose my voice, and they are triggered upon my Misophonia and Misokenisa triggers.
It has been a wild journey. For a while, we were just looking for answers. I was having nightmares about my abuse, but I was in denial that anything happened due to deep repression of my traumatic memories. So we searched for a physical cause. I've had many tests and exams, an x-ray, three MRIs, and an ultrasound. Everything would come back "normal." We tried a number of treatments; natural supplements, exercise, counseling, medications, physical therapy, and EMDR therapy. What we learned throughout all of this is that jumble of unexplainable symptoms in-fact do have an explanation, and that is that they were onset by the Childhood Trauma. You can click here to read my story and more regarding my conditions and healing journey!
Now I know why I am experiencing what I am today, but I still have yet to find healing. Life has felt incredibly painful and lonely during this time. I believe and have faith that God will and is using this pain and these trials for so many good and beautiful things. I want Him to use my testimony for His glory and I have faith that He will and maybe even already has. Still I continue to pray and wait for a door to open that may lead to the grand finale of this season and the beautiful beginning of the next one. And now I would like to give thanks to God because I believe that door may finally be in front of me.
I have the opportunity to try a new treatment that I believe may be the turning point of this story. I am finding myself more excited and encouraged than I have felt in quite a while. I truly have hope that the Lord may use this for the healing I've been praying for every day for the last few years!
As a quick side note, the Lord has called me and my family to serve Him abroad! God willingly, we will be leaving the country in the fall. This summer I have held on to the faith I have that God knows what He is doing, even if it seems like I will never find healing. The Lord has never let me down. And now, here I am, just a month or two away from Him taking me to a new place, and He has now opened this door for a brand new treatment! Praise Jesus!
I am doing what I can to be able to begin this treatment before I leave the country. The biggest bump is the financial aspect, especially considering we are about to make such a huge move! So I felt that it maybe wouldn't hurt to put my story out here, just in case someone felt led to help a sister in Christ in any way.
Just the support of those who have read my story has been such a huge blessing! So thank you so much for joining me in this journey and God bless you all!
Updates will be posted on my Patron and on my YouTube channel where I make videos all about my walk in faith, my healing journey, and everything along the way!
Thank you all so much and God bless!- Sienna Skye
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